The Heart Beats Wildly

My mission in life is not merely to survive, but to thrive; and to do so with some passion, some compassion, some humor, and some style. – Maya Angelou

Every great dream begins with a dreamer. Always remember, you have within you the strength, the patience, and the passion to reach for the stars to change the world. – Harriet Tubman

True love is not a strong, fiery, impetuous passion. It is, on the contrary, an element calm and deep. It looks beyond mere externals, and is attracted by qualities alone. It is wise and discriminating, and its devotion is real and abiding. – Ellen G. White

Last night at dusk I walked the labyrinth that sits nestled in the woods on the east side of my farm.  It was a perfect night; calm, the last of the brilliant sunshine hitting the bottom curve of the valley that this land lays in.  The songbirds broke the stillness and a lone woodpecker joined the chorus as I started the journey at the beginning of labyrinth’s entrance.  There are coloured stones and glass at the start on a large Poplar stump so I grasped the one that felt best – a deep blue glass bead.  I held it close to my chest and walked forward.  I needed to feel my core truth as there was so much emotional turmoil that needed processing; the sincere clarity of the blueness resonated with what I was seeking.  So much had stirred up during the month of April’s Mercury Retrograde that had opened deep wounding – both my wounding and the collective’s.  I feel it all, I am one with All.

When one is in the thick of this darkness it is hard to know who we are anymore.  It feels like we are fishing with our hands in murky waters; there is sifting through and not knowing what we will grab onto.  We stumble, feel ungrounded, cry, rage, brood and wipe the grit from our eyes.  It’s also lonely as we let any false beliefs release from within, and as it should be people, places and situations will leave our lives. Some ties we cut permanently, others we let drift away or temporarily put aside until the wounds can be healed.  

I rounded the west turn of the labyrinth and on this part of the path there is a small sapling, right in my way so I have to grab onto it to stay on the path.  I stopped for a minute as I shifted my hips to step around, needing to lean into and steady myself against the narrow trunk.  I rested my head against the tree and thanked it for its strength. Slowing down when we feel uncertain is necessary so that we can let go of cellular memories and belief systems based on the dark wounds of criticism, judgement, fear, guilt and shame. It is crucial that we take this time, instead of pushing through and keeping busy.  Moving on more slowly through the circular labyrinth to the center allowed me the stillness and focus to be more clear of what was impeding me from growing and being creatively joyous.  Humanity’s deep woundedness based on limiting, rigid beliefs and our greedy, destructive history has separated us from what truly feeds the well of our delicate heart.

I left the blue glass on the stump in the center, then picked up a deep red stone that lay there and began my symbolic journey outward from the emotional storm.  I needed the blood red of this wise rock to steady my Root chakra; for stability, safety and a renewed sense of purpose. This is where we find ourselves in the month of May: our heart is beating wildly as the stormy shadow energy that was stirred up in April is finally releasing.  While there is fear, there will also be hope when this emotional thunderstorm passes.  And even if we are not fully sure of what the intensity is “about” we must not lose confidence in our ability to successfully be in it to navigate the change, chaos and anxiety that will come during May.  As we release there will be more room for the new to come in, more excitement, awakening and creative energy so that by the end of this month we are elevated on the next part of our co-creative journey together.

In devotion and steadfastness,


Physical and psycho spiritual symptoms and predictions for May: To put it mildly,  the energy during the month of April was catastrophic; emotionally it was like nails down a chalkboard, and mentally it was akin to a mind bending drug trip.  Surreal, tough and spiritually taxing, there were moments that we may have felt that we did not want to be alive anymore.  There is something very honest in that.  It forces us to examine what we want out of our brief earthly life, to choose,  instead of doing what we think we are supposed to do, giving our power to others or wasting time on drama or fearful thoughts.  

You can weather these emotional storms, and know that May will allow a softer, gentle knowing to seep into your pores.  You are learning to live more instinctively, to be guided by your soul when there are many infinite paths to take, this is not a goal oriented To Do List or based on wounding from the past!  This is the co-creative paradigm; to trust in one’s Self and the Divine so completely that nothing can knock you off your truthful path.  No matter how much pain, hurt, or outside betrayal you endure, you know who you are at your core.  This Age of Aquarius is about getting very real with yourself and with others.  Finding courage, gaining wisdom through life experience and developing a strong spiritual backbone is needed to traverse this new way of living. As you make it through each psycho spiritual storm you become deeply rooted in following your heart, with less mental certainty of the outcome.  That is truly tasting life. This is what a Human Being is.  And through this we are joining more with Oneness (as I mentioned in my April blog) – more connected to the intrinsic Life Force of the universe.  Surrender to this, detach, release and become more passionately connected to everything!  

Symptoms for the month of May:  unsteady nervous system, emotional release – so let it go instead of trying to suppress it, the seemingly never ending digestive issues, feeling ungrounded, fear, grief, uncertainty, kidney and liver pain, back issues, heart pain, breathing issues, throat/tonsil/sinus and ear issues, stiff neck / shoulders, up and down emotionally – one day lots of energy, the next day not (or this can go by morning/evening or hour by hour), more moments of clarity, passion and personal freedom.  

Archetypes for this month:  The Earth Mother, The Lover, The Shaman and The Muse

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Cosmic Dates for May:

Full Moon in Scorpio, May 10 – an intense moon that can see emotions rise, and passions as well. Sparks can fly, we may smolder and/or burst into flame.  Steady yourself, ride the energy lightly, channel this energy to get things done, make decisions, seek clarity and know the intensity will pass.

Eta Aquarids Meteor Shower – April 19th to May 28th (peaks on May 6/7)

New Moon in Gemini, May 25 – the power of attraction is at work – what we put out we get back, and as we shift into this new sense of Self after the storm we will find who comes our way to teach us further, and we teach in return.  Dream of beauty – put it out into the world; where can you create, whom can you touch and support, what excites you, brings you a sense of harmony and balance? Change is just the creative process in motion, embrace it and feel alive!

Pictured:  The labyrinth on the Senses of the Soul Farm