The Up…And Down…And Up

“We do not grow absolutely, chronologically. We grow sometimes in one dimension, and not in another; unevenly. We grow partially. We are relative. We are mature in one realm, childish in another. The past, present, and future mingle and pull us backward, forward, or fix us in the present. We are made up of layers, cells, constellations.” ― Anaïs Nin

“The only way that we can live, is if we grow. The only way that we can grow is if we change. The only way that we can change is if we learn. The only way we can learn is if we are exposed. And the only way that we can become exposed is if we throw ourselves out into the open. Do it. Throw yourself.” ― C. JoyBell C.

Sometimes growing can be painful, and it can happen in a number of ways; such as through a toxic or sacred relationship, a crippling health challenge, layered emotional intensity, actual physical growth, or increased responsibility and accountability.  While I have gone through my fair share of these, it is much more painful to me to watch my children wade knee deep or be in over their head during these unavoidable, spiritual trials. 

Recently my youngest son was preparing for his wrestling championship and was not only nervous about his ability to perform but to also weigh in under 82 kilograms to make a weight class he always competed in.  I could feel his distress and noticed that he had stopped eating a few days before in order to shed the few extra pounds that he needed to before his “weigh in”.  I had to coax him to drink water, eat more protein (it builds muscle! I reasoned) and give him comfort and “Mommy time”.  His body image already fragile, this was adding another boulder to the load of his teenage angst.  He, like most young men, keeps his feelings deep inside and it voraciously gnaws on his sense of self esteem.  His innocence and young soul is a joy for all those around him and comes naturally but finding his inner strength is something that is much more of a challenge. He is not in the least bit intimidating and would more likely give you a hug then speak an unkind word.  His anxiety increased when he did not make his weight group – this meant he had to compete with bigger men almost  9 kgs or 20 pounds more than his size.  He is a tall guy, 6’1” with a football build, but has the heart of a dove.    I could see him immobilized in thought over this added challenge of a tougher weight class and struggling to find the courageous Will to step onto the mat.

Like my son, we have our inner challenges, and the Universe has a way of rooting them out so that we can grow.  I told him to look at the upgraded weight class as a way to grow, to find another part of himself that was authentic, but forgotten.  When we are preoccupied with our fears, goals, desires and ego based needs we forget that there is a deeper experience that we are here for; that of cultivating a humanness of Self that is infinite, boundless, immeasurable and expansive beyond our current recognition.  The upgrade in consciousness that we are warping through since the Eclipses in February is taking us to place we have never gone before.  Not withstanding the extreme physical symptoms of late (see below), we are required to be still in certain moments to breath in and assimilate the depth of the surreal experiences.  It feels like we are dying over and over again, much faster now, and being pushed to our limits; to dream bigger, to risk more, to stretch, to withstand such intensity of emotion and mental triggers that we beg for it to all slow down.  Just for an instant.  And it does, but only momentarily. 

With this latest cosmic “upgrade” we will be held more accountable for our thoughts and emotions, so that we can then realize that as we emit these frequencies to the ethers it immediately comes back to us in circumstance and outside experience.  This boomerang effect allows us to realize there is a multidimensional reality beyond our comprehension, we cannot control it, nor should we be allowed to, and so engages us to listen more carefully for our soul to lead the way.  It is a great leap from 3rd /4th dimensional reality to 5th Dimensional experience.  Experience being the key word, and we need to learn to respond rather than react.  To be inclusive and as non-judgemental as possible.  We are NOT in control, we cannot restrict others with our own agenda, but rather need to follow instinctual guidance that is a gentle or urgent nudging from the inside.  When we follow this and it aligns with the highest good our experiences on the outside are more peaceful even in the midst of stormy trials. We then truly know that we are of the world, not alone, and that challenges that come our way are not meant to drag us down, demean us or tear us apart.  They are meant to bring out the deepest, unexpressed parts of us that will create a Wholeness and lift us up to the Light.

In gratitude of a shared human experience,


Physical and psycho spiritual symptoms and predictions for March:  Have you noticed that your body is changing?  Many will start to see the extra pounds put on over the last two arduous years start to come off, and/or the need to become more healthy, to get outside, eat better, exercise.  If you are feeling this way then kick it into high gear.  Spring is on its way and our metabolism is starting to shift, along with the eclipse energies that removed trapped burden and overload.  So weight loss will be easier for some, especially if the fear is easing and you are trusting your path.  Your cortisol levels will start to drop and with that bloating and digestive woes.  There is more momentum this month, with the NEW coming in for many – and with this new challenges – the universe is asking us to take it up another notch.  My advice to those on their path is:  with new consciousness comes more responsibility, so respect that and face your new learning head on.  There is much passion to be found on the road ahead too;  new community, new relationships and co-creative projects in the works!  There will still be reassessing going on – what do you need to nurture yourself and live your truth?, what do you really crave to feel alive? – so that you can thrive and feel passionate about life?  The archetypes of the Sovereign, Prophet and Spiritual Warrior are strong this month. The energy will still feel up and down…and updays of elation, in the flow, and then the need to rest, reflect, grieve, fine tune and make changes where necessary if it feels right.  Your self worth and progress depends on it so listen as deeply as you can to your needs.  You will be learning how to tune into your inner compass with each shift in energy. Commit to your authentic way of living!   And remember to have gratitude for the sacred abundance around you.

Expect symptoms such as:  weight loss (for some), metabolism reset, moments of emotional purging, battling with addictions, craving psychological freedom which leads to illusion dropping away, spiritual insights and liberation, times of heavy fatigue (so rest!), heart pounding, rapid clearing that causes dizziness, feeling ungrounded, Thyroid issues, fatigued coughing, achy joints, sinus issues, throat issues. Most physical issues will appear or increase around the moons and Equinox and be intense then dissipate fairly quickly.

Recommended Senses of the Soul Products: – in the interest of supporting new consciousness and health, and keeping life simple in these chaotic, uncertain times, I will no longer be posting individual products for each monthly blog post.  Instead I am working on a new project called Soul Journey Box, to be launched in the spring, that will support you with more ease of choice on your healing journey!  In the meantime, please feel free to browse my website and shopping cart – if you trust your intuition you will know which products are right for you at this time.  

Cosmic Dates for March:

Full Moon – March 12  – Your current situation is bringing you opportunities for spiritual growth and learning – take a look – what needs to be changed, what are the lessons, follow your inner whispers and take action if necessary to get back to authentic living.

March Equinox in the Northern Hemisphere – March 20

New Moon – March 27/28 – allow yourself to be lifted out of struggle and out of the old parts of Self or patterns that are finally dying away! Yes, it is true, you can have an abundant life!  It can seem harder in the final act of breaking away, as to finally shed the past takes effort.  Give it and yourself the time to let go and regroup.  You may not fully see the direction of your life unfolding but trust in your instincts and the Divine plan that is unfolding.  

Pictured:  Goldenrod – Creates a stronger connection to the Higher Self so that one can open up with love, enthusiasm, and manifest abundance and cooperation.  Develops self-trust and self confidence therefore allowing one to connect to higher energies and channel one’s cosmic truth.  Goldenrod essence is contained in my Spiritual Warrior Elixir and Essence blends.